I read a blog this morning that posed the question, “If you had enough, would you know it?”   I guess I would ask the question, “what do you REALLY want your life to look like and what do you plan on doing to get yourself there?”

I used to ask the universe for ten million dollars. It sounded like enough money to allow me to do the things I wanted to do, but I never asked myself a) where would that money come from and b) what WOULD I want to do if I HAD that kind of cash?  I’ve thought of all the usual things of course; I would pay off my house, and my bills, I would travel more, and help people in need as the opportunities arose.

I’ve always thought that the one and only part of Oprah Winfrey’s life I would absolutely LOVE to have, is the ability to make things happen for other people.  I think everyone needs a fairy godmother; the idea that someone out there cares enough about what touches your heart to MAKE the time to help you along your path when it seems like the road may have come to an end, is an experience I have had, and I have tried to pass along.  I learned that lesson from wonderful old friend of mine in Oregon who gave me $50 when I needed gas money to get to California thirty years ago. As he handed it to me, he said  “Don’t worry about paying me back.  Just find someone else who needs $50 and give it to them”.

Like a lot of people, I used to think money would make me happy. I thought it would provide the financial security I craved and give me breathing room I needed, so the struggle to pay bills every month and come up with the cash I needed to keep my business going wouldn’t be so stressful.  But I realized recently that I don’t want to work that hard to have that kind of money.  I want a balance, so I’ve learned to be specific about what I want. The words DO matter, and I learned that from developing a business plan that required me to decide exactly what I wanted my business to look like, so I knew how to go about planning it.

I want to sell eight to ten handbags a month to a major department store, and do four major art shows a year; the Smithsonian Craft Show, the Belleville Art Festival, the American Crafts Festival at Evanston and the Sausalito Art Festival.  I want to take a month’s vacation every year.

And I want to be someone’s fairy godmother when the opportunity arises.